To be naive or not.

I remember the morning after I created this. I was getting ready and I began to wonder if anyone would actually read this. I mean, of course besides my amazing, supportive family. Then I got a facebook message from my dear friend Kathryn, talking to me about it. I went to my blog and I had 3 followers already! (Granted, I only have 4 right now and no family members are in that group *cough cough*) I could have done a happy dance. That was such an encouragement. Thank you for supporting me friends!

Questions and thoughts fly into my mind everyday as I think about TOLL. I’m dreaming big for this organization, I mean huge. I’m talking documentaries, CDs, mission trips starting next summer I feel like the sky is the limit. Even as I type this, I get chills and my hearts flutters. At the same time, I can’t help but think am I so naïve to think that all these things can be done in a summer or am I just naïve enough to make it happen? And then a verse from 1 Timothy comes to mind. And I have no choice but to laugh at myself. If you were a part of a youth group, I guarantee you heard this verse. 1 Timothy 4:12 “Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.” Now why am I laughing at myself? See, in December, I was asked to help edit/write camp and D-NOW material and devotionals. I wrote a devotional on that verse challenging the students. In fact, I told them, “Don’t let your young age be an excuse not to do mighty and powerful things.” Am I so thick as to not follow my own challenge? I do not consider myself above it, that is for certain. But maybe, the Lord not only had me write the devotional for teenagers, but so that I can look back and remember as well. If I do not even listen to my own words, they are nothing but wasted breaths. So maybe I cannot do it all in one summer, maybe the organization will not spread like I dream it will, but those are unknowns, uncertainties that are in all aspects of life. In Matthew 6, during the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus begins to talk about worry, an illness that plagues us all. In verse 27, He asks, “who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” Lord, I know the answer is none. So for this summer, for this time, I will look past what dictates what is the possible and what is the impossible. I will ignore those things that tell me I can’t. Because even if, all my hopes, aspirations, and dreams do not happen this summer, I will know it was not because I didn’t believe. Today, I chose to believe that I am JUST naïve enough to make it happen. "Jesus looked at them and said, 'With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.'" Matthew 19:26